I tried to write a bog entry in November, but I never got around to finishing it.
The part I did manage to write read
"I want so desperately to be able to form my thoughts and feeling into words, but often enough I do not have the words to be able to accurately describe them. I am not good at keeping journals, or at blogging, simply because I usually do not consider my thoughts relevant enough to be worth keeping.
I have realized that my thoughts are relevant, no matter how trivial they may seem, because how I express my thoughts is really the only way people are going to have any idea of what is going on in my mind.
Like most people, I have lots of feelings, usually very conflicting and confusing. I just happen to be better at hiding them from other people.
Recently I have been reevaluating my life. I know that I need to change something, I am just not sure what. I know that I want to move, because in my current situation I still feel like I am living with my parents, which is not something I want. As far as school goes, I've realized that I really should stop worrying about it, because I am only 16 years old. I should still be in high school, and I have time to decide what I want to do with my life and to get in the habit of being a good student.
The most pressing issue in my life is my human relationships and interactions. I have always chosen the people I let get close to me carefully, but recently I am thinking that my judgment has slipped. I want to start anew, I am trying to expand my social circle and befriend people who will potentially"
After reading this, I remember the mood I was in when I wrote it, and I remember the things that were going on in my life. I don't remember where I was going with it though.. I wish I could say that it has changed, but realistically, I mostly feel the same way. Obviously a lot has occurred since then, some of it very good, but some of it very bad.. I am posting this simply because I did intend to post it when I wrote it, and I think it is still relevant.
The part I did manage to write read
"I want so desperately to be able to form my thoughts and feeling into words, but often enough I do not have the words to be able to accurately describe them. I am not good at keeping journals, or at blogging, simply because I usually do not consider my thoughts relevant enough to be worth keeping.
I have realized that my thoughts are relevant, no matter how trivial they may seem, because how I express my thoughts is really the only way people are going to have any idea of what is going on in my mind.
Like most people, I have lots of feelings, usually very conflicting and confusing. I just happen to be better at hiding them from other people.
Recently I have been reevaluating my life. I know that I need to change something, I am just not sure what. I know that I want to move, because in my current situation I still feel like I am living with my parents, which is not something I want. As far as school goes, I've realized that I really should stop worrying about it, because I am only 16 years old. I should still be in high school, and I have time to decide what I want to do with my life and to get in the habit of being a good student.
The most pressing issue in my life is my human relationships and interactions. I have always chosen the people I let get close to me carefully, but recently I am thinking that my judgment has slipped. I want to start anew, I am trying to expand my social circle and befriend people who will potentially"
After reading this, I remember the mood I was in when I wrote it, and I remember the things that were going on in my life. I don't remember where I was going with it though.. I wish I could say that it has changed, but realistically, I mostly feel the same way. Obviously a lot has occurred since then, some of it very good, but some of it very bad.. I am posting this simply because I did intend to post it when I wrote it, and I think it is still relevant.
